East.Side.Back.Street

I jus came back from a run..feel damn good la..after perspiring, i no longer feel lethargic.. haven post for some time n glad that everyone is still making good use of this blog whenever they can...

This past few weeks i really feel quite stressed up.. esp after my test which i thought i sure die( nothing to do with u 2 la, es n black).. I got enough time to study jus that i din perform in the test.U guys definitely did help me feel better after i told u guys but it's still disappointing when i studied n still thought sure fail....when the results came back, although mine was almost the lowest in the class, it made me feel much better cos i act passed n i m not very far from the average score..

Then now, coming this fri, there's marketing exam.. i really spent a lot of time reading n highlighting n writing reference notes but i dunno if it's going to be the correct method to help me score.. But i finally completed the whole textbook...so aiyah jus go in n do watever i can. I must really thank song for specially going through the trouble to help me find the famous quotes for me to use for this marketing exam.. not that i m hinting that u guys din help me or wat.. i know all of u r busy, i jus din expect him to go through the trouble to help me cos i only asked him whether he know of any websites.it really did save me time.. Also thanks for your last min efforts to help me book the room in smu to study, n coming to smu to keep me company... if i stayed at home to study i definitely wun achieve as much with my bro's friends ard. n also sq thanks for also coming down after being informed last min to study n keepin me company after song left. It's really a last min decision so i din expect so much..haha.. Thanks..

But of course all of u guys also did make me feel much better.. U know in school i really is never mix ard.. i jus go back hall everytime, so it's either sleep, study eat or watch tv. My bro damn ass la..he goes ard telling everyone i m the most hard-working business student ard..say he never see b4 bus student like that..haha..But i will really go mad if not for our weekly meetings la.. I was telling es i look forward to meeting u guys every week. so my plan is like to study from mon to fri then meet u guys on sat..so sat is like the day of my week..haha. N i always feel more relaxed after meeting u guys so i can start the routine again..

Of course the UK guys also did give me good advice la.. so coincidental..after my test when i m still feeling down es called me then he also talked to me.. met black on the net n he also gave me a lot of advice.."time to harvest" now black? haha..Thanks man.. Of course not forgetting huli..also met him on the net n talked to him..But u guys overseas dun over pressure yourself..most impt is must come back healthily...Take care ah.

Jus wanna thank all of u guys..Eastsidebackstreet!..It's really a lot of fate that brought us together, to be bonded so closely together.. So all of us should continue making efforts to maintain or even make this bond stronger.. i jus wanna end by telling everyone to clear any mis-understanding u hav on the spot. dun keep it to your heart. It will accumulate n one day the friendship will be broken...of course i hope there wun be this day!

Lam

i'm writing this while waiting for my turn to present. fuckingfucking nervous i tell u. haha. but im not realli listening too. im listening to songs now, jez wanna disengage myself from all this competition. but i must they are realli good.

anywae one of the reasons why im listening to music and not listening is because i dun wanna compare myself with them. i want it to be a me against myself competition where i will work towards improving myself and not against them. so to esmond, stress results from a competition u give yourself, w urself. dun be bothered by how well ppl do. jez assess ur abilities and work w the tools u have. every1 is different. we have our strengths and weaknesses. work w ur strengths and strengthen ur weaknesses. i rem u alwaes said, 'wat makes u think ur any lesser than those ppl?' i truly bliff in tt. i tell my frens tt in skool too. we are equal beings. we are not any lesser than them. what ppl can do we can as well, if not better. its how much conviction and sacrifice we are willing to input. but is giving up everythng worth doing jez for an A? results are important but theres is life beyond that. dun revolve eveything round grades and achievement. cos when u eventually look back, is tt all u want in ur life? this applies to all my frens. i hope i make a point here. take care and study hard. im sure we can all make it.

your most super wu di yandao fren,

ue

Hey Guys, finally a post after so long. I was on the phone with you guys last night, im glad all is fine on your side. Life has been quite kind to me as well, nothing is on my mind except work. Only thing was my mom told me my grandpa fell ill early last week. He is fine now, I hope he is.

I have so many things to say. How should I even begin? Early in the week I received two big boxes from my parents. (I think mainly my mom, my dad does other stuff.) Unpacking the stuff I was again amazed by my mom, she never fails to amaze me. You know what she sent me? She sent me 'tau sa pia', canned food, 'bah kut teh instant noodles' AND the all famous 'CHILLI BAH KUA.' Yes, the one the backstreet always locust. I was telling Lam the other day on MSN, that I think my wife is damn lucky. =) Don't get me wrong, I am not insinuating I am wonderful but I think if my wife loves me she can be sure my mom will love her very much too. My mom is a wonderful woman and I am sure all of you think that of your moms . My mom taught me so much about life, how to love someone, how to treat everyone with a sincere heart and never to compromise on your morals since that will outweigh everything in the end. Infinite things, I would save it for an important occasion. And of course, I inherited her damn bad temper. I cannot stand hers just as she cant take mine. So we have a general concensus there. =)

I think this post will be much about myself I hope you all don't take offence. The past few days I have been feeling so pressurised. There is simply so much to read, never in my life have I ever read so much. My character plays a big part in this pressurising issue too. Whenever I read something I cannot go away thinking I have half-accomplished it. This takes its toll on me since it's never really possible to ever finish everything. And even if I could it probably would not be effective. So I just came to a conclusion today that I'm not superman. I am tired, I need to take a break. Maybe tonight, or maybe sometime. I hope everything turns out fine just as long as I keep working at it. Many thanks to all of you who kept me sane yesterday..all of you take care and work hard ya? Goodnight!



Your friend,
Esmond

Oh man, I'm at SMU now, waiting for Lam. So thought might wanna post a blog. I have nothing particular to write or mention, so I'm just writing as my thought flows.

Yesterday was Ivy's bdae, and so SQ and Lam, pls post photos. Time flies, a few yrs ago was Ivy's sister's bdae, now it's Ivy's turn! And soon its going to Assmond's turn and mine. Damn in another 10 yrs I'm going to look back again at this blog and wonder "Shit man! Another 10 yrs have passed! I'm a freakin daddy of 3 man! What the hell!" We had a good time yesterday, chatted with Ass's mother too, and she told us about her views on women nowadays. Haha es guess that's where you get your saddam inspiration from. Nah just kidding! But funny when you hear advice from your fren's mother about chasing girls. Haha. Talked to Black's father and uncle too. Black really resembles his father man. Oh yea talked to Ivy's parents too. His father kept asking us to drink. Anyway Ivy's parents' actions touched me. Ivy's mother was rather inconvenient in her actions and her father would help her around alot. Wonder how many couples of today would do the same for their spouse in the future if TOUCHWOOD something happened. Everyone will be like "Fuck off mode" when something bad happens. Skeptical mode now.

The past week has been ok, rather fun I might say. Everyday come school talk kok with frens and go home. Tuition has finally ended for me, and today when I woke up, I realli felt damn shiok! I have totally no obligations today, been long since I've felt this way. Took our FA test on friday, and we cheated quite blatantly. Haha, damn la Yuyee, we're going to be auditors next time le. Hope we wun end up like Enron ppl. NTU boys are busy with their exams, SMU boys' exams will be in a month's time. Oh my still rem previously when all of us wanted to take engineering at NUS, but now its only Seto there. Never even considered SMU. Scarly nec time Ass will be married to a Ang Moh and I'll be married to an Indian (Super Highly Unlikely Impossible 0% Probability). Have nothing to complain either, so far the people we have met in SMU are fun and nice ppl, to name a few, ying2, serene, laura, siu2, chris, amanda, think that's all man. Not to mention with ppl like UE SQ KOW around, so life here must have been pretty smooth sailing really.

But that's the thing man, dun really engage in conversations with substance now. Everyday just talk kok talk kok, talk until I tired of talking kok. The Jedi force is too strong, we need the Seith Lords like Ass and Blackie to come back and bring about the balance. Haha. No I'm not talking nonsense. You guys really bring the balance man. Haha. Or else we'll be talking too much kok, esp with Yoda (ronan) around, ok enough.

Tuition's ended for me, so I've pretty much time on my hands. Most importantly is to bring my studies back on track. Next I'm actually scouting for a nice CCA to join, you guys got any suggestions? I'll look around somemore I guess.

Been writing for 35 min now, and Lam is still not here. Ok man, Guys have a great Wk ahead. Have fun!

SJ

I was at this party T3..it was their haloween party...damn fun...haha

it's been awhile since i last posted anything so i decided that i should update our blog. ok for this week im going to be very busy but i wun go into details. im sure every1else is too. so lets work hard man. for the uk and us kids, esp esmond, study hard but dun stress yourself too much. im sure all u need is a little time to get used to the things there. and in a few weeks time, we will all be seeing one another again.

i shall now talk abit bout wats been going on and hopefully u guys wun sae im umum any more. anywae i've been feeling a little out of sorts lately.. i realli do. like distracted and all.. quite moody actually. sq u must be thinking im paranoid but i realli feel weird. the whole episode w whoever jez doesnt seem right and its not at all like wat u guys think. gals rite, they can go out w guys but it means nothing. 11yrs for the real true blue marists has taught us to think otherwise, which is terribly wrong. so i suggest that we be more open and dun take too much inti tt.

and to a fren whom i spoke to, do whatever u think is best for u wo depriving urself of anything. if u think the person is nice, then understand the person better and see what goes from there. the person may not always be what u had in mind but it may turn out best for u. jez give it a shot. u nv know if u nv try. dun keep holding urself back cos if u slip wat may be a golden opportunity, its going to be pain and regrets. and like wat song alwaes saes, we want to bring the balance back. esmond has spoilt it big time and we are here to restore order. in any case, i hope u get what im trying to sae cos im not realli good w words.

well enough of serious stuff tt nots too cheerful, share this little something. WE STRUCK TOTO!!! haha the first time ever. and guess who bought w us? the suay shen ah kow. haahha. i guess the bsb overpowering luck has over shadowed the suayness. but for so much of shit rite, its onli 30 bux. but who noes kow mite cheat song and i since the tix are w him. haha

I think i have not meet up with u guys since the bbq...think it will be worse as exams are coming up and im havin duties ( 4 duties for deepavali week! damn SAF!) ... been listening to all the songs that we sang during our unforgetable ktv sessions and it really brought back alot of memories...must thank ue for cd...haha rem i sent a msg to thank him that day and it goes like this:

Hey dude thanx for the cd muackz

And he promptly replied:

haha u bloody cb dun anyhow muack me u knn haha

bloody disgusting and funny, think any guy will said the same thing hah.

ok i know i've been Missing In Action from the blog...but i really can't think of anything that is worth some salt...my england not as power as es and what i want to say xin already posted ( really la! ) . So i think i will post some crap that i thought of on my way back....

What happen if we are all pimps in our alter lives? We surely do have our own pimp names right? But the names cannot be too crude or irrelevant...and so this is what i thought of:

Dudes :/ Pimp Names :/ Girls :
Dumbo/ Dr Shagadala/ Nurses
Blackie /Prof Gangbangalore /Bangla
Es /Sven Got -Erectsson/ British
Huli/ Daokay Lanqiusong/ Ah Lian
Yuyee/ Mr Dick Foreme/ Shemale
Song/ Takuya Fukuyu/ Japanese
Kow/ Chairman Maoshoumaoziao/ Animals
Lum /Master Jingalingaling/ Big Booby
Xin/ Sergent WetWet/ With swimsuit

and last but not lest

Sq/ Papa Spankee /young..very young

ok this brought me memories of studying with es and yihang, instead of reading i daydreamed a lot of craps like why venezuala is the hottest...sometimes my ability to daydream of crappy stuff amazes me...ok i learned to focus more ...

Alright gtg hope to reunite soon, hey if u guys feel its a tat too offensive let me know kay, take it down in no time. In the mean time just study hard kay, same to the 3 expats out there..take care to all while i'll go work on my masterplan

Prof Dumbodore

Shopping day!

My Dorm....














My school compound....














Woohoo...37 stories above ground zero man....


Huli

Hey guys, I have been catching up on the news lately and realized that they are many calamities happening around us. Earthquake in Pakistan, Hurricane Wilma approaching, outbreak of Bird flu in turkey which is spreading across the whole of Europe, floods, famines etc. This has been the topic very much talked about during my conversations with many people, including ivy; and I thought I should just share my thoughts with you guys.
For once, let’s put away our focus, our goals, our dreams and targets in life. I am not excluding myself in this context but I feel all of us (the human race in general) have been too ignorant and oblivious to the things that are happening around us, epitomized especially by us Singaporeans, who never 'have the chance' to step out of the comfort zone.
What do we actually do when we heard of such disasters happening? Nothing. Probably our only few reactions would be ' huh? So jialat ah?' or ' how many people die? Wah so many!' and the worst of the worst, ' isi't? I didn’t know.' After that, we just go back to our lives, proceed on with achieving our goals. The world is ending, true enough. But I think its ending not because of the devastating effects these disasters brought upon us; the world is ending because there’s simply no heart in us humans anymore. World without compassion equals to an ending world. Humanity? I think we have. But sad to say, its just to our families, our close friends, our bosses in the future maybe, and to people that in one way or another whom may benefits us. Probably this is an understatement that will cause a lot of unhappiness to many that read it. But that’s how I feel. Sometimes u can say, the spirit is willing to move and give, but the flesh is often all too weak. Probably this feeling is just one of real hypocrisy.
All of us were brought up from good and wonderful families. Moral teachings, righteousness, family values, filial piety, results, career and future are all taught to us. But hey, do u guys remember your parents saying, 'boy, when you are 4 years old mummy will bring you to Africa to help the people there'? No offense to any of you parents because I think they are all great. I never exclude my parents also. What I am trying to say is that society has changed the human heart and nature from what it is supposed to be. Materialism has snatched us from humanity. Goals, focus, success and self achievement have all blinded us from compassion.
When disasters happened, most of the helpers and volunteers are from the country itself, simply because they are directly affected by it. Other countries help, but more often than not many economical and political reasons are behind it. Only a minority of people help because they simply want to.
Seriously, there is nothing wrong with the way we are living now, all of us deserved a pack on the back from being who we are now. Family, friends, studies we have been putting in our outmost effort, leaving no stones unturned, no questions and doubts to the commitments that you guys have put it.
I am writing now, seating comfortably on my chair typing on a laptop, moments later you guys will be sitting in your best comfortable position to read this stupid ranting of mine. Probably at the same time, many people are dying out there, losing their loved ones.
So what can we conclude from this? Any new resolutions? Probably not. Not even for me. We will just off the computers and go back to our daily lives and routines.
Alright guys, now you can take your focus, your goals, your dreams and targets back into your life.

Effervescence..
Your smileLivens up his day.
EndearmentsAnd troubles melt away.
His love,Unspoken though it may be
Fear notFor it plumbs the deepest sea.
Sometimes, all is required is a little reminder of the priorities in life.
Read not too much into his actions,
for he's the one that'll never cease to care.


Your allies abound.
for those who do not know, Ryan is a AMI friend and a Tj senior. and he said he posted this on his blog for me. hahaha. anywae i gave him the address of our blog

ur most yandao friend,
yuyee

hahaha

Hey hey good morning Guys! Giving tuition now to my neighbour, and he's learning his spelling now, I've given him 10 min to do it. Haha, ok ya I deserved to be sacked ok? But this in turn leads to me the topic I want to blog today, about good time management? and ya I know this is not applicable in my case now, but its a lazy cosy thus morn!

Es said in his earlier blog,"you either gain 1 min, or you lose 1 min." Time management is a super important thing. My friend, Marcus, used to tell me that he planned his schedule daily and follows it conscientiously. My time management sucks, and this in turn causes my productivity level to fall tremendously. Until recently, when I'm really occupied with lots of tuitions and projects and presentations, I started to plan my time better and I discovered that I could achieve more than I could previously, which was when I was realli free and idle with lots of time in hand. I remembered someone, I tink Es, telling me about an issue. "Are we people who can achieve more if we are busier instead of being too idle?" Cos he was realli ocuppied with his soccer, j***** and studies during VJC, and that was what he discovered about himself. After busy handling all the stuff, I found that I was in fact inclined towards this too.

Time management, has anyone got any good advice to give on it? Sq told me before that he could spend hours in school but the actual hours he used for studying was in fact minimal. I thought about people who excelled in the CCAs and studies and thought how did they do that? I soon found out that it was about giving your 100% in everything. while you're studying, dun let your mind drift about and focus 100% on studying? that applies to giving your best shot when you're playing, eating, sleeping etc. In this way, we should be able to achieve more den we are now. Are we all underachieving now? Lets do something about it.

Yesterday, I attended a talk for my friend, cos she had something on. It was her "dream job" talk, so I couldn't refuse. When I reached there, I found that everyone was unfamiliar to me, and soon I discovered that all of them were the top 5% of the SMU cohort every year. The talk was about the Boston Consultant Group Recruitment Drive. I saw the prerequitsites on the recruitment form and found that the 2nd criteria after the GPA for the job was the PAST CCA RECORDS. And so ya, just wanted to remind you guys to participate more actively in CCAs in schools. This applies to my good friends overseas as well!

Ok, gotta go back to tuition now. Enjoy!

Songjie

The guy in the middle is a Singaporean from NUS law, he is on exchange, year 3. The guy on the extreme left is a chinese who migrated to Finland. All different kinds of combinations here la, live in switzerland, trinidad and tobago..you name it, you ALMOST have it. It is a requirement to wear a mask to the party and of course I refused to, ill look really dumb! The suit is from my prom, still fits me perfectly!
Japanese girl, very considerate and caring. Quite and soft-spoken..

Mexican Girl, though her English is not as fluent, I have a very good impression of her. What I would relate as a lady, very different from the normal Singaporean-Prada girls. Simple and strict views on family values, part of the conservative party also..=)
A Korean girl, funny and nice girl. Conservative. =)
Hey my dear friends,
I just came back from a run and had dinner, so thought ill post before I start mugging. When I was running, many thoughts filled my mind, many important things. I will try my best to make it coherent so bear with me.
I thought about my life and basically this question, what is my reason for living? I know this seems like a very simple question but when u dwell deep inside for an answer, it is far from that. At this moment in time, I must say I live for people I love. My parents,Mummy and Daddy, and my brother Alvin. Likewise for my grandparents, my gong gong and po po. My Auntie (who sent me off) who watched me grow up, who fed me up to this young adult I am now. Also for my cousin who was with me through my childhood. Next, is all of you. I know different people will take this friendship with different perspectives. To me, it is an integral part of my life and I just cannot imagine how my life would be like without all of you. Everyone of you taught me something about life, innumerate things and what I think is most important is that all of you direct me to do good. No one, at least it has not occurred to me as I post this, has ever encouraged me to do evil. You all is my life, without you all I am nothing. No one knows me, no one bothers of my existence or even know of my presence, no one would even wanna hear me speak. What am I without all these people who hold importance in my life? Who can make you cry, who can move ur heart and you feel life is worth living till its last breath, who can make you feel 'I love my life and I cant wait for more?' , who can do all of these? You gave me the answers to all of these, you gave me reason for existence. Without you all, without people I love, I am as tiny and insignificant as a sand.
Let me touch on Procrastination. Well, I have said these but let me say them again, I struggle with it myself as much as all of you do, but I am trying to overcome it! =) Never procrastinate, if you know you have an issue, if you know you have a weakness, rectify it! The problem will NOT go away even as time passes by or even if you choose to sleep it away, or leave it behind. It will come back to haunt you, so settle it as early as possible and move on to the next problem.
Second, be all you can be. If god gave you a potential of 85/100, you had jolly well reach that standard or you are surely not doing urself justice. Laso, you will be ashamed to see your ancestors if you meet them in heaven. Do what u must, be what u can be, reach for the skies and at the end of the day, have an assured sleep cause u know you have done your utmost best.
Thirdly, I just wanna remind everyone that time will pass by very quickly. I am saying it once more, before you know it, it will be graduation and we'll all be working. What you are gonna be in ten years time will depend on what u do now. Train urself, train your mind to be rigorous, to have the mind of steel to resist temptations. Before we know it, hopefully Song and Yuyee will be great accountants, who can help the country and our people ensure corruption is wiped out, so that the country will prosper. Lam and Sq, hopefully will become wonderful businessman in their own fields, driving the economy. Black, hopefully he will be a very successful aeronautical engineer, working for Rolls-royce and the like. Weiqin too, will be a great engineer, a master in his field. Ah Kow, being a successful economist and Ivy, a successful chemist inventing new drugs to keep all of us alive. Not forgetting Weixin, who may become a wonderful policeman securing our nation or even a journalist, the 'eyes' for the people. All these will come soon enough, so whatever it is, look to the imminent not-so-distant future. On graduation, you wanna say I gave my utmost best or would you be sitting one corner, glad but not joyful. You choose all these. Time dont wait for any one of us..u either gain a minute or you lose a minute.
Well, enough said..I will post some photos I took during my formal dinner a couple of days ago. I have put on so much weight. See you guys and please take good care.

Vic, your place looks swell. Nothing near my impression of dinghy, musty, stonewalled cellar types with luxuriant mould overgrowth and a dim lamp swinging from the ceiling. Though as much as I love to see the immaculate condition of your dwellings, I must kindly request you to get your tight nigga ass off and out of your dorm.

Your parents didn't pay a quarter of a million dollars for you to marvel at the ingenuity of a radiator. If Friday's your off day, make it an off day. Go out and take in the London air. Visit all the archaic landmarks and architecture that would be squandered on your youth but fondly ruminated in future when you're an old, fusty dingbat. Pick up horse-riding(I've always wanted to try that, btw). Shop for a pair of Clarks(they are really cheap over there I heard). Arm-wrestle at their taverns. Attend opera. Swim the English Channel. Go rowing(somehow they like that sorta thing). Go fox hunting with your neighbour's irate bloodhound. Chat up that cute blonde over at the delicatessen across the street. Gotcha there Ivy, haha.

An overseas education costs so much more because it is worth that much more. The invaluable experiences, the immersion in a totally different culture(well, maybe not totally, not for I-used-to-be-a-colony Singapore), the liberal nymphomaniacal nubile young blondes... Ok, I think you get my point. So please, for once, be a true-blooded Singaporean and milk every English penny you've thrown in dry of their worth. After all that, yes, you can go back to marvel at that off-white, intricately designed radiator. And this applies to you to Es.

lotsa love,
sq

Okay guys, due to the overwhelming request from dear Mr lam and friday is my self declared relax day, I have decided to take some pics to let u know of my life here. Yup, someone see already please tell my parents to take a look at it, so that they will be more assured abt my living condition. First up is my room door. Room006.

Next up is my shelf, still empty. Waiting for next package to come.

I'm in my hall. My roommate down and truly out behind me on his bed. Finally managed to steal some time to write something. These days, it tends to rain quite a lot. Rainy days are really a good time to reflect upon our lives because of the feelings and emotions that it portrays and elicits. I start feeling melancholic and retrospective. Thinking about the things that I did that led to another, so on and so forth. Every step we take results in a particular episode unravelling in our lives. Why don't we take some time out from our busy schedules to think about the decisions that we've made and what occurs as a result of our decisions. I think this can help us to make better decisions in the future. I'm sure one of the things we think about is the past relationships that we had. Past relationships are good gauges to measure us. In the previous blog, Songjie shared with us the feeling of loneliness he has especially when there's no one to think of when you're alone. I believe we've experienced this feeling once in a while. Even I'm guilty of this once in a while. Our minds are truly marvellous. Thoughts have influential implications on our well-being and in turn, we are affected just by the delusions we create in our heads. Good or bad, we are slaves to our minds and our hearts.In the context of love, we must really feel from our hearts the love that we deserve to have. Not because our minds tell us that it's time to love or whether it is time for us to have a girlfriend. We should not rush into a relationship just because people say that varsity life has the best selection of girls to choose from. We listen to our hearts. We let our hearts guide us to where the heart feels at home. With all this said and done, I'm not saying that we shouldn't explore and expose ourselves to widen our social circle, know more people. But what I'm saying is we shouldn't treat this matter as analogical to buying 4D. The more numbers you buy, the higher the likelihood of striking. Hasn't it occurred to you that you spend just as much money? And the more you expect something out of it, the more unlikely it will happen. Think back on the times when you are waiting for a cab and your bus comes along not just once. And when you are waiting for your cab, your bus arrives in twos, even threes. Let nature take its course and let love flow.Our minds are solely for rational thinking, our hearts are for information that our minds cnnot fathom. The thoughts that our minds cnnot process. Antoine Saint-Exupery said that we must think with our hearts, not our minds. If we think using our minds, we're not thinking at all. Think about it.

Xin

Just came from a wake and realised i know shit about chinese tradition. (like shouting byebye across the wake to my friend is a strict NONO !)
Need to say thanks to all of u guys local and abroad for the nice evening i had that day...i do mean it when i say thanks and thats not for coming but rather being friend to me all these years, sharing all our memories , for all the love and care , thanks.
So 5 days into my adult life and how does it feels like...well im still as forgetful, im not any more handsome and certainly not any more richer but the sense of responsibility of adulthood had slowly creep in. I realised birthdays now are just like any other days except that u want people who made a difference in your life and u want to thank them for being what they are to u...
I worry about not earning money. I worry about not earning enough for my dream gal to marry me. I worry about being mediocre. I worry about not having a career. My worries are more real and clear now
Having a family potrait during the bbq was one thing that delighted me most as i cant find a single full family potrait of the 4 of us togehter.Im just happy with the bliss and peace we are enjoying and hopes it continues for as long as it can. I cant think of a time when the 4 of us actually took a family photo together and so SQ u better dun accidentally delete it kay!

dumb and dumbo

Before I begin, lets all line up one row first and give UE our greatest salute.
"HORMAT YUYEE, HORMAT SHEN JA TA!" haha. This guy here is good man, and seriously he's bu jian dan!

I just had one of the worst dinner of my life. Dun mistake me, the nasi lemak and chilli were good, so were the chicken fillet, fishcake and luncheon meat. But I couldn't taste any of them. Cos of my flu. Thats the worst thing about flu, u can't taste what you eat.

Just had my last tuition at Woodlands. Finally it has ended. However, I did feel alittle strange. The house, the table, everything, as if I'm going to see them for the last time. But before I went, his mother asked me to take him again next year, seriously I dun think so, its too far.

Damn, I'm just rattling on about damn trivial issues. Nothing happening in my life has happened lately, maybe those who has happening stuff and stories and jian zhaos to share should blog more hahaha. But seriously la, something has been affecting me. Seeing UE quite meng in his progress, sometimes I do feel like shit, why haven meet anyone I fancy? Even if I did its also impossible due to many reasons. Sian.

The previous night before I watched Irreversible, ok just the Anal part. Definitely one show u would want to watch if you wan to go on a diet, cos its super revolting. I couldn't sleep after watching it, and until now I'm still disturbed by it. Definitely not for the weak hearted.

Wa piang, so fast I got nothing else to say already ah? Damn no life. Oh yah to the guys abroad, black es huli. Miss you guys man. Miss blackie for his freaking not funny jokes and Christianity lectures, miss es for his saddam hussein views and chilling out sessions, miss huli for his tao ze lookalike face and lousy poems! haha!

Have fun guys.
Songjie

Hi guys, wanted to post a blog then realised that Esmond was a step ahead of me. in many aspects, I shared the same sentiments as him. Well, for me, I think my teaching stint in HIHS helped to become someone more independent and trained me to make decisions on my own, so coming here and settling down wasn't much a problem. Honestly, its pretty tough to go somewhere totally foreign alone and try to settle your life down there, without the 'training' that i got during the last 4 months, it will defintely be much tougher. I used to run alone back in SPore, so running alone here is like a norm to me but the loneliness that I get is defintely much more overwhelming. Everything is foreign, the grass looks different, the cars/buildings/roads all look different and even the air that i breathe taste and smell new to me. Many times, I wonder to myself why I have to choose this path, choose to leave my comfort zone and change my life. But looking back, I guessed I have chose the right path. My interest and passion lies in it, and my career and family defintely depends on it in the future. Coming here have also changed my life's perception to many things. Homesickness have make me treasure kinship more while being alone have make me treasure my friends more. Taking all these positively, I felt happier, knowing that I have a wonderful family and a great bunch of friends back home. Anyway guys, I think family and friends are the utmost important to us. Many times we subconciously take them for granted, even though we say 'ya i know', ' ya i know' but in actual fact we don't. U guys are great and defintely u don't need me to preach and to nag at u guys lah, just a word of reminder. :) yup, anyway, my course work have really kinda started. Interesting but tough. Many tutorials to do, but somehow i enjoyed doing them. I think 2 and a half years of break/army really turn us into somethingl like leashed dogs, waiting to pounce on getting our degrees once we are out of it. I guess i am the only taking engineering, so all the maths and physics can't really ask u guys anymore..haha. Yup, next up are my social activites. NOt a must to join, but sometimes really in a dilenma whether I should commit myself to all the clubs and societies. But i will weigh through the pros and cons and will come to a decision soon. Everything here needs money, clubs fee, kits fee, simply turned me off. yah man, anyway i guessed u guys really enjoyed urself during weiqin's birthday, wish i can be there. Hope everyone is doing fine and sorry that i can't make the effort to call each and everyone. The bloodsuckers here are really sucking me dry, but i will try!!!meanwhile take gd care, have lotsa fun and well study hard. ( i know you guys will). Okie then, shall end my post here. BYe!

P.S HOpe this can be inspiring and thought provoking to u guys:
We are living in a fallen world and life is simply as such that we have to go through many trials and tribulation. ANd despite these manifold difficulties, we just have to put our FAITH in GOD (okay song, buddha also), and eventually, things will turn out fine and well. Never give up in the midst of difficulties and troubles. ITs going to be sunny anyway after a heavy rainstorm.

Hi Everybody,
How is everyone doing? Hope everyone is well and good. I just had dinner so I thought I will drop a message before I start on work.
I can't believe ive already been here for close to a month. I am doing okay I guess, a lot of things are in place. Mom and Dad (esp my mom) ask if I am happy, they say I don't seem happy. In return, I ask them what they mean by happiness. Of course, im not like overjoyed but I am doing fine. In retrospect I guess the army period because of her, I have become more independent. I believe last time I was the kind who would prefer to have a person accompany me everywhere I go, now I feel perfectly fine to do everything alone. It's good in a certain way but also I guess people tend to mistake me as anti-social. If you don't club and are not willing to spend money, this is quite a boring place. I have been going for runs alone; the weather is perfect for running. I wish I could play soccer more frequently though, bring my game up one notch. It's quite sian playing with the Singaporeans its like some of them think they damn zai when they are really not good. Im relishing the chance to play with the koreans and japanese soon.
Well, my mind is filled with my studies. In a way I think it is good since I don't have the distractions I might have in Singapore. Then again, I don't know whether I am up to the task, I am still trying to work my way around the subject. There is just so much that fills my mind; thiss is my career, this is what ill be living on for the rest of my life, this is the job that will be feeding my family. Too much to speak really.
I was talking to Weixin on MSN that night. It was very late Singapore time, guess all of you must be asleep. Anyway, I told him : Xin, do you realise all those times of going to Kino (it was our therapeutic bookstore where we try to find healing =) ) is over. All those times of going to Borders alone, these times are over. They are well and TRULY over, it is really what we mean by THE PAST. Im not bringing up unhappy memories but I still remember what filled my mind when I just went to Sispec. My heart was burning, I lay in my bed in Tekong and I think where the hell is fairness? Where is all these things that my teacher have inculcated in me since young? I am here serving the army and that fucker( BMW guy) is out there driving her around. Why the hell am I sweating my hearts out shouting; 'Kill,kill,kill- the combat lessons', reciting stupid army songs, marching left right left right like one cock and that bastard is out there studying medicine! All that filled my mind then was that if I come out of army I am gonna make sure I study hard. My point to all of you is this; remember those times we walk aimlessly in the streets complaining of taking MCs..these days are truly behind us. We are reservist, NSmen now! Everyone, recall all those feelings u had and make the best use of them. I gtg soon, its an abrupt sign off, I am sorry but I will post soon. All my good friends, please take good care of yourselves.



Your friend,
Esmond

Alright. Since I've been receiving so many requests for a 2nd post, I have decided to satisfy you fans out there. Before I start though let me put up the photos that we took at er duo's birthday, since everyone sooooo graciously asked for them.




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foxtrot lima, foxtrot romeo, over




xin: suck my -toot-!
er duo: mai lai la, ani kin ah?


Ok, the reason why I don't post much in this blog is because:
1. I've been working behind the scenes to make this blog look nicer.
2. My mastery of the English language might make you guys look bad.
3. I prefer to be a listener. Interpersonal communication revolves around the ability to listen. You might wanna jot that down.
4. All of you can't be bothered with what I have to say.
5. There are no sexy girl pics on the blog.
6. I have no babe to rave about, unlike a certain jian nan ren.


- the end -


p/s: 3rd post slated for summer blockbuster season. coming to a blog near you. watch this space.

Hi Everybody,
Its almost 3am now, I just finished doing some readings. I would like to take this chance to apologise to everyone for not sending in a blog entry soon enough. I would like to reiterate that what you guys have done for me surpass all I would ever have expected. One of the reasons why I didn't blog was also because I don't know how to put the right words across and I feel I would be short-changing both you and I. No flowery words of description can express how I truly feel inside and you guys will never truly imagine the gratitude I feel. All you people have done for me, all I can sufficiently express is I feel it in my heart and I will keep it in there for the rest of my life.
Sq, I still have ur smiling buddha hanging around my neck! Lam, yuyee, Song and Weixin, needless to say, I know for sure how much you guys have sacrificed to make that wonderful video that I will show my kids. (Esp so since I saw Song at Maris Stella way before this video was officially born) I must say it was a good effort but my friends are ALL bad at lying. No skill at all. =)If SMU offers acting classes pls enroll for them you guys SUCK at acting!!! But it makes it even all the funnier and heart-warming. I ASSURE YOU, I will show it to my kids. Ah kow, thank you too for your inspiring words and for always making the effort. We have known each other for an incredibly long time. Er duo, ni you xin le I know. Pls get your mind settled for university. Earn the 'TALENT' shirt you always like to wear or I think I should gladly accept it on ur behalf. Lam and xin, thanks for calling my mom up talking to her. I really appreciate it very much. If only you guys were girls, I would not hesitate dumping my girl-theories and go straight into a relationship with u all. Nah im joking. =)
Well, so much to blog, so much to say, too much that words are not enough.. Iw ill be back when my thoughts are re-organised. Have been listening to Zhou Jie Luns' Yi Lu Xiang Bei so much...Remember how when we would listen to Yi Lu Xiang Bei the whole journey back home? So funny..

Embarrassment of the strip-of-lard round my waist has inspired me to curb my voracious appetite. Vowed to take only whole wheat and white meat for the rest of the days till I arrive in London.

Despite the nice, alluring weather for afternoon workout, I chose to sit in front of the box and be a couch potato today. Uncontrollably, I began indulging in Cadbury Milk Chocolate. I battled the temptation but failed terribly.

Shifting lazily in my seat, I could feel the harmonic motion of the 'lard' around the waist and thighs. I should be pardoned. A 'red' day is not a good start to a brand new day. (Arghhh...!)

Victor, the doctrinaire has slowly integrated into the Brits' culture. The Brits' culture seems to be a revelation for him. The way they talk and pronounce words ending with 'T', their ways of addressing and form of greetings etc never fail to 'arouse' him.

It is definitely one hell of an experience. I am proud of you guys. Living far away from home, dragging oneself out of bed every morning and doing 100 out of 100 work and chores all by yourself, very admirable. These are mundane but never easy. The seven brats will never understand. (Laughs)

Starting to feel restless from the over-dosed of chocolate. I mean sleepy, not horny. Blood seems to be gushing down, emptying from my brain to metabolize those sinful junks. All I think of now is geylang soya beancurd and chomp chomp wanton mee. To the 7 self-proclaimed HUNKALICIOUS, IRRESISTABLE GOD'S GIFTS HUNKS, can we have supper one of these nights, pleaseeeee?

I think everyone is really busy these days man.. those overseas all have started school, those of us who r studying in singapore have multiple tests n presentations n exams r coming up real soon...but hang in there man guys..it's going to be over shortly... not for the uk guys la of course.. yours jus started..haha. anyway heard from black he's coping fine.. now they're only teaching the basics. but wat abt u es? have time to read the books not? basically i think yours is jus reading n reading n memorizing man... yah n u guys dun put too much pressure on yourselves man. jus do your best.. as for huli, i m sure u hav no probs with studying la rite? haha...

Yesterday i couldn't sleep till like 4 plus...Dunno y but i started to think of my late coach... I think some of u saw him b4 at toa payoh...All the memories with him started to flow back to me...He calls me 'ah Xiang', treats me as one of his favourite swimmers n really takes good care of me...I rem once when i scolded another swimmer for blocking my way he supported me n also reprimanded that guy. haha. All these felt like it jus happened yesterday but it's actually like 8 years ago.. n really unknowningly, he's gone for like 2 yrs already..I really regret not showing enough appreciation n not having the chance to pay him my last respects as he passed away when he was in China...But actually that's not the issue now. The point is that time really passes so fast, disgustingly fast that u won't realise it..Sometimes, I would suddenly have the fear that the next moment i realise, I will be like 60 yrs old n ready to go...So everyone if now u still dunno wat u wan in life, better start thinking n having goals to achieve man!!! Time won't wait for u...

Also, today in my marketing class, my tutor mentioned some things which i totally agree. Today if u can love this person a lot, n tomorro u might jus not feel the same way..it's because of immaturity n not knowing wat u r actually going for..N i think this applies to some of the past gfs of our clique..So those guys who still harbouring any thoughts on patching back, pls think twice. She can do it to u once, she can do it again.. UNLESS her thinking matures, but how sure r u until she really takes time to prove? Also when 2 ppl get together, their habbits n way of life should be the same as how their familes brought them up.. if when both couples r different n strong-headed, it wont last! it's either u end early or u hav more tolerance n understanding with each other. Lastly some tips for the guys..haha. next time if your girl asks u wat u like abt her, the best ans is "Dunno". Because dunno means it's from your heart that's really feeling n not your brain...Makes sense or crap?

Anyway the guys in UK,US pls take good care of yourselves.. n when u're free call us or u can jus update the blog...For those in sudying in Singapore, It's only going to take a while more b4 u can relax. so press on for now...

Lam

It's been a long time since I last posted a blog. But the past few weeks have been kinda bz for me. but i guess it's my inability to manage my time well. the rests don't feel like good breaks and the studies aren't productive. so you guys better manage your time well.
apart from being v bz, we took part in the run which we got 8. haha v v v lucky. but it was quite an experience. i'm now trying to jio ppl to take part in the standard chartered relay or marathon. the sky's the limit.
song and i had presentations todae. he had 1 while i had 2. wasn't v well done but i felt it was better. let's abandon the shackles and all work hard together. nothing stands in the wae of Marists!!!
now to the jacq thing, songjie and the rest sae im v jian. haha. and song is a super bao toh kia. haha. we'll be having our stats test this week tog w FA presentation. aft this week will be the long awaited term break. think im going to have my lunch on fri and slp thru the rest of the week. hahaha. dun bother looking for me man
guys abroad take care. everything here is in safe hands and under control

yr most yandao fren,
yuyee( one of the 7 hunks w the snow white. but ivy keeps saying she's pochahontas. hahah)

Yesterday was a long and occupied day. Like yesterday, I had two tuitions today. Brain-drained. Today seems short and unfulfilled for me. However, my day was cheered with mom's cooking. We can never thanked our mom enough. Agree?

Since the day Victor left, my bed has been littered with our pictures, pictures we took in australia and thailand. Never want to tidy them. I guess my mom understands too. She never picked them up or asked me to tidy them.

This time of the Sunday, I will usually be doing some shopping in town with Victor.This is the first weekend without him. I simply hate Sunday evenings. It's so gloomy for me. He has left for barely a week but I already cant stand the sunday evening of nostalgia.

ivy

Hey people, finally got a chance to sit down and write on the blog. These few days have defintely been a whirlwind for me, starting on the 27th evening, where everything that I thought was 'oh still so far away' started to unfold infront of me piece by piece. I don't know how esmond felt, but the moment when I entered and scanned my bags, my tear ducts were like bulging til they were abt to burst. Thank GOD he gave me strength. 13 Hrs of flight was pretty smooth, as there was no one sitting besides me. But still I couldn't sleep, til when it was like halfway through the flight. Lam,Weiqin thanks so much for the letter, it really meant alot to me. Thanks for the assurance that you have given me on our friendship. To the rest of the guys, thanks for sending me off. It defintely made my leaving more unbearable, but still I am glad you guys came. I waited at Heathrow for 4 hours, before my school bus came. It was 10 degrees then, certainly not the way to start my life abroad alone. As esmond had said, things were pretty slow paced and inefficient. Everything was like waiting and waiting. Went to Loughborough Town, where its like the city, look at the surroundings to get myself orientated. I was introduced to my Hall, Telford, supposedly to be the most 'happening' with all the booze, pubs and dance. But well, I attended none. So don't know how happening it can be. I am staying on the lowest level, where I am the only Asian. Upstairs are all girls, no Asians. Haha...then came my induction programme today. 110 students, 1 Singaporean. The coursework is pretty heavy, with very little break. But I am certainly looking forward to it, really wish I can finish my 4 years fast and get back with you guys.Finally my net is up to day. Again you guys (+ Ivy) make me wanna cry. Ivy, thanks for your support and strength, like what weixin had said, we may be distance apart, but displacemet we are defintely zero cm apart. Lam for all your support and help to us, thanks man. Oh yah weixin, thanks for your email. You have never fail as a friend, forever so wonderful. Ue, Sj, Sq and Ah kow, thanks so much also, making things seemed like its still the same as before. Thanks man. Well, next 2 days are the weekends, hope you guys are looking forward to it. Meet up more man and update me with loads of pictures. I will start taking more pics and update you guys also. Hopefully I can meet up with Esmond soon. Meanwhile take care and study hard. You guys (+ Ivy) are always on my thoughts, giving me strength and courage. Thanks man.