Friday, August 12, 2005
Wake up Time
Recently I've been feeling pretty moody and down.
Was actually in a worse mood, but after reading kow's blog, I managed to cheer up a little. Many things have happened recently, that have made my mood hit a new low low.
One of it was that when I was informed today that I wasn't selected for the badminton team. And yes, I'm disappointed.
I realised that that day wasn't just an informal trial, it was a real trial. Damn!
From my recollections, I thought I really sucked that day, not just in skills, but in the will and drive to play. When the shuttlecock drops in front of me, my mentality was like 'eh relac man'. I just did not have the fighting spirit to go for it. And guess what, at the end of the day, I still thought to myself that I would definitely enter the team.
This in turn leads me to think of an issue I wanted to blog today. When was the last time you have achieved something that you really fought for, and felt happy about it?
For me, I really cannot remember. Years have passed, and I think I have become passive about life. Many factors have contributed to it. In the past, maybe I have often gotten things too easily, or I've always depended on my good luck. Until recently, when I started to reflect, I realised that I've become someone whom I dun wanna become.
Badminton and other stuff, I realised that I've often made up convenient excuses for myself to avoid real time situations. I realised that I'm often always and able to come up with excuses for not doing this, or not doing that. True enough, sometimes they may sound reasonable to me, but in retrospect, most of the times my reasons were 99% wrong.
I realised that while doing something, though you may have many reasons not to do it, you have as many or even more reasons to do it.
I remembered at my accountancy camp, we were playing this game called ' I have never...' Den you are suppose to say something which you have never done and den those who did it before would raise their hand. It was quite a sexual game really, where ppl would say ' I have never shagged anyone before....' When it came to one of my turns, I said ' I have never fought very hard for a girl before.' And the guys were laughing and saying ' Eh why, no need to fight also can get is it?' But they misunderstood me, where I actually meant that I was quite cowardy and passive at such stuff.
Life is short, dun come up with stupid and convenient excuses to make yourself lose out all the good things. Dun screw up the best things in your life just because you're not sure who you are. Like what huli said in his earlier blog, get out of your comfort zone just like a ship needs to leave its harbour before it can start to explore the oceans.
To buggers who think that I am jokin or talking kok, buzz off, cos I'm not.
I really hope to share all these with you guys, especially yuyee, sq, weiqin, weixin, thats why I'm typing all these now. All these are definitely my heartfelt feelings. I would have chosen to write this down in my personal diary, but I felt it can act as a wake up call to you all. In fact, when was the last time you have heard me spoken so seriously to you all?
Because I believe that if you guys could step out of your comfort zone, you will achieve at least 10 times what you are achieving now. I've always believed that true friends should always help one another, to support and help them achieve what they want, and not to hold them back, or limit their abilities in anyway.
I have lost out many good things in my life, to toms,dicks and harries whom I definitely dun lose out to. Things that I should have fought for, but did not, and regret now.
When was the last time you have really fought for something, and gotten it and felt happy about it? If you haven, its time to reflect and think about it.
SJ
Was actually in a worse mood, but after reading kow's blog, I managed to cheer up a little. Many things have happened recently, that have made my mood hit a new low low.
One of it was that when I was informed today that I wasn't selected for the badminton team. And yes, I'm disappointed.
I realised that that day wasn't just an informal trial, it was a real trial. Damn!
From my recollections, I thought I really sucked that day, not just in skills, but in the will and drive to play. When the shuttlecock drops in front of me, my mentality was like 'eh relac man'. I just did not have the fighting spirit to go for it. And guess what, at the end of the day, I still thought to myself that I would definitely enter the team.
This in turn leads me to think of an issue I wanted to blog today. When was the last time you have achieved something that you really fought for, and felt happy about it?
For me, I really cannot remember. Years have passed, and I think I have become passive about life. Many factors have contributed to it. In the past, maybe I have often gotten things too easily, or I've always depended on my good luck. Until recently, when I started to reflect, I realised that I've become someone whom I dun wanna become.
Badminton and other stuff, I realised that I've often made up convenient excuses for myself to avoid real time situations. I realised that I'm often always and able to come up with excuses for not doing this, or not doing that. True enough, sometimes they may sound reasonable to me, but in retrospect, most of the times my reasons were 99% wrong.
I realised that while doing something, though you may have many reasons not to do it, you have as many or even more reasons to do it.
I remembered at my accountancy camp, we were playing this game called ' I have never...' Den you are suppose to say something which you have never done and den those who did it before would raise their hand. It was quite a sexual game really, where ppl would say ' I have never shagged anyone before....' When it came to one of my turns, I said ' I have never fought very hard for a girl before.' And the guys were laughing and saying ' Eh why, no need to fight also can get is it?' But they misunderstood me, where I actually meant that I was quite cowardy and passive at such stuff.
Life is short, dun come up with stupid and convenient excuses to make yourself lose out all the good things. Dun screw up the best things in your life just because you're not sure who you are. Like what huli said in his earlier blog, get out of your comfort zone just like a ship needs to leave its harbour before it can start to explore the oceans.
To buggers who think that I am jokin or talking kok, buzz off, cos I'm not.
I really hope to share all these with you guys, especially yuyee, sq, weiqin, weixin, thats why I'm typing all these now. All these are definitely my heartfelt feelings. I would have chosen to write this down in my personal diary, but I felt it can act as a wake up call to you all. In fact, when was the last time you have heard me spoken so seriously to you all?
Because I believe that if you guys could step out of your comfort zone, you will achieve at least 10 times what you are achieving now. I've always believed that true friends should always help one another, to support and help them achieve what they want, and not to hold them back, or limit their abilities in anyway.
I have lost out many good things in my life, to toms,dicks and harries whom I definitely dun lose out to. Things that I should have fought for, but did not, and regret now.
When was the last time you have really fought for something, and gotten it and felt happy about it? If you haven, its time to reflect and think about it.
SJ
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